The One

I have learned the importance of the one. When I started doing ministry it was very challenging for many different reasons. I was so discouraged and shed many tears. It wasn’t till the Lord prepared me for what was about to happen in my class that I was able to accept my situation.  He asked me if all I was going through was worth it for the one. He reminded me that he went through everything I am going through and more just for the one. He was rejected, abandoned, alone, no one wanted Him there, and everyone hated Him. To the eye nothing was being changed but everything was getting worse. He was mocked and beaten to the point of death for the one, for you. God asked me if I was willing to do the same. He asked if I was willing to pick up my cross and carry the burden with Him. He asked if I was willing to be Him to His people. In tears I said yes, I could not deny Him.

There are three siblings in my class whom the Lord has given me an unexplainable love for. At first I felt guilty because I thought I was starting to have favoritism but then I realized that the Lord was giving me His heart for them in a greater way than usual. I found out later that their mother died in a fire and they are not currently living in their own boma (home). They are living in another boma in order to go to school. The place they are living is very difficult and because of it some of them have a hard time in school. One day the oldest, Monica, started to cry in class and wouldn’t sit down. I couldn’t figure out what was wrong until she screamed and threw off her skirt in class. She was crying hysterically because there was a lizard in her skirt and she was terrified of them. She cried out “mama, mama, mama” and I ran over and held her. I let her cry and tried to comfort her. My heart broke for her, and it was at that moment that I said YES to the lord. Yes this is worth it, even if it be the only thing I accomplish this year. I was here for this girl who has no mom. I was able to be a mother to the motherless even for a moment. All of my challenges and tears were worth it even for that moment.

I’m not saying it is easy, I’m not saying it is fun to pick up your cross and drink from the cup from His hands. But what I am saying is that it is worth it! Living here is not a walk in the park, and neither is living in America, but everything is worth it for the one. As we reach the one we can reach the world. This life is but a moment compared to eternity. I don’t want to get to eternity and regret my life here. I don’t want to say why didn’t I suffer for a while in order to save lives? I don’t want to be selfish; I want to be like Jesus who for the joy set before Him endured the cross.

In class we were singing I wana walk like Jesus, and I made up a new verse. We sang I wanna be your mouth, I wanna be your ears, I wanna be your eyes to everyone I mean. So I’m gunna walk, walk like Jesus…. After singing the song I realized something, how often do we ask to be God’s ears or eyes. So often I ask to be His hands, feet and mouth but forget the importance of the ears and eyes. With the feet and hands you can see something in action even with the mouth it is easy to see God moving. But being the ears of God and the eyes of God is greatly need and often not seen. A lot of the time people don’t need someone to speak to them they need someone who understands and listens, they need someone who can see and not judge. My prayer is that I fade in to the back ground and become His ears and eyes.

I want to thank everyone who is standing with me in prayer! I don’t take it lightly and I greatly appreciate it! Please keep praying for my health, that the Lord will continue to keep me strong and healthy. Also please pray that the Lord provides for all my needs as well as the ability to greatly bless his people here. Right now the DTS is on their outreach and they are not exactly in the safest of places, so please please pray for their protection and breakthrough in ministry. Keep my family in your prayers as well. I know that a lot of the time the enemy tries to attack families knowing that the family was created to be the core. I love and miss my family and I don’t want to see anything happen to them. Finally please pray for my kids. They need God to help them in school. Their minds need to be opened in order for them to learn and retain all that they are learning, and not just book knowledge but also God knowledge. Thank you again for everything!! May God bless you!