I have learned the importance of the one. When I started
doing ministry it was very challenging for many different reasons. I was so discouraged
and shed many tears. It wasn’t till the Lord prepared me for what was about to
happen in my class that I was able to accept my situation. He asked me if all I was going through was
worth it for the one. He reminded me that he went through everything I am going
through and more just for the one. He was rejected, abandoned, alone, no one
wanted Him there, and everyone hated Him. To the eye nothing was being changed
but everything was getting worse. He was mocked and beaten to the point of
death for the one, for you. God asked me if I was willing to do the same. He
asked if I was willing to pick up my cross and carry the burden with Him. He
asked if I was willing to be Him to His people. In tears I said yes, I could
not deny Him.
There are three siblings in my class whom the Lord has given
me an unexplainable love for. At first I felt guilty because I thought I was
starting to have favoritism but then I realized that the Lord was giving me His
heart for them in a greater way than usual. I found out later that their mother
died in a fire and they are not currently living in their own boma (home). They
are living in another boma in order to go to school. The place they are living
is very difficult and because of it some of them have a hard time in school. One
day the oldest, Monica, started to cry in class and wouldn’t sit down. I couldn’t
figure out what was wrong until she screamed and threw off her skirt in class. She
was crying hysterically because there was a lizard in her skirt and she was terrified
of them. She cried out “mama, mama, mama” and I ran over and held her. I let
her cry and tried to comfort her. My heart broke for her, and it was at that
moment that I said YES to the lord. Yes this is worth it, even if it be the
only thing I accomplish this year. I was here for this girl who has no mom. I
was able to be a mother to the motherless even for a moment. All of my
challenges and tears were worth it even for that moment.
I’m not saying it is easy, I’m not saying it is fun to pick
up your cross and drink from the cup from His hands. But what I am saying is
that it is worth it! Living here is not a walk in the park, and neither is
living in America, but everything is worth it for the one. As we reach the one
we can reach the world. This life is but a moment compared to eternity. I don’t
want to get to eternity and regret my life here. I don’t want to say why didn’t
I suffer for a while in order to save lives? I don’t want to be selfish; I want
to be like Jesus who for the joy set before Him endured the cross.
In class we were singing I wana walk like Jesus, and I made
up a new verse. We sang I wanna be your mouth, I wanna be your ears, I wanna be
your eyes to everyone I mean. So I’m gunna walk, walk like Jesus…. After
singing the song I realized something, how often do we ask to be God’s ears or
eyes. So often I ask to be His hands, feet and mouth but forget the importance
of the ears and eyes. With the feet and hands you can see something in action
even with the mouth it is easy to see God moving. But being the ears of God and
the eyes of God is greatly need and often not seen. A lot of the time people
don’t need someone to speak to them they need someone who understands and
listens, they need someone who can see and not judge. My prayer is that I fade
in to the back ground and become His ears and eyes.
I want to thank everyone who is standing with me in prayer!
I don’t take it lightly and I greatly appreciate it! Please keep praying for my
health, that the Lord will continue to keep me strong and healthy. Also please
pray that the Lord provides for all my needs as well as the ability to greatly
bless his people here. Right now the DTS is on their outreach and they are not exactly
in the safest of places, so please please pray for their protection and
breakthrough in ministry. Keep my family in your prayers as well. I know that a
lot of the time the enemy tries to attack families knowing that the family was
created to be the core. I love and miss my family and I don’t want to see anything
happen to them. Finally please pray for my kids. They need God to help them in
school. Their minds need to be opened in order for them to learn and retain all
that they are learning, and not just book knowledge but also God knowledge.
Thank you again for everything!! May God bless you!
